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I wanted to grab him by the shoulders and shake him. I'd rather not be exhausted for the rest of the day. No, I said, you can't. You can't hide, because your body is the tracks, and the train is a piece of yourself that wants to come home.

I wasn't sure we were going to fight, but I wasn't sure we weren't, either. I felt the bed move on the other side. Nathaniel, I said. You asked me why if I'm having sex with Clair, I don't look at her the way you look at Nathaniel.